Battles

There’s so many things that I regret in my life. Blaming my self for everything. And wishing that maybe I could go back to the time.. I want to go back.. I want to change everything. Thinking what could’ve been. But fate really sucks. There are times that I want to end everything. I tried doing my best. I always cry at night because at night where nightmares begin. There are times that I don’t want to sleep. Because I’m scared. I always overthink. So I always keep my self busy. But pain really doesn’t go away when I’m alone the pain starts kicking in. There’s so many nightmares that I cannot forget.There’s so many words left unsaid. But I just kept it inside me. Because they will never understand this. Because no one cares.

As I kept this fights inside me, I hope one day, I forget the feeling of darkness. I know life is hard. But I will keep fighting to the best I can.

Wish me luck

J